Wednesday, 16 July 2008

A new direction

Well, I've finally done it.

After university, I did a stint phone counseling at a suicide hotline, and I remember being completely absorbed by the training. I went back to uni to take some psychology courses, hoping to go to graduate school in psychology, but I needed to work, so that never got off the ground.

I've taught, been a librarian, but my heart has always been in psychology/counselling. It shows up in my favourite television shows, what I read, how I behave, what I listen for.

But when it came to going for it as a career, I made all kinds of excuses. I'm not sure why; part of it is that growing up with parents obsessed by academic work to the exclusion of everything else meant I couldn't bear the thought of more. There was also the excuse of time, money, age, you name it, I found it.

But vocation is vocation. I've been told over and over that it's an area of strength for me, person after person has asked if I am/have thought about it/why not/and so on. And over the years, my interest in the area has grown, not waned. And somehow, I just gravitate towards people who hurt. This year, I gave in and said 'yes' to the universe.

I'm on a course to train as a psychotherapist. And I can't wait for it to start.

KJ asked me: So why do you want to go in to psychotherapy? You're clearly good at reading people, but I'm guessing it's more than just having the natural talent?

I say so much on this blog that it must be hard to believe that I find this hard to articulate - but those things closest to the heart are. For this 'why', there aren't words. It's just...what I do.

But perhaps music and words can express what I can't:

"Don't give up, 'cos you have friends,
Don't give up, you're not beaten yet
Don't give up, I know you can make it good..."

I want to be part of helping people see that, helping them find *their* way, not anyone else's:

"Don't give up, 'cos somewhere there's a place where we belong."

It's gonna be all right, even if it's not what you expected. Hang in there.

And if you need a hand, here's one to hold till you can make it on your own.


Ariel said...

Congratulations, she'enedra!

You shall be brilliant. I'm so glad you're doing this.


Anonymous said...

How do you train to be a therapist and what do you think makes a good therapist?

I ask because I have had some experience of counselling. Some of it was good and others parts not so good.

Anonymous said...

You will be oh-so-good at this. Your intuition will also aid you, I suspect.